apifony, or however the hell yu spell it...

Tonight I realized my trust issues aren't that I don't trust my boyfriend, but that I don't trust myself. I get so mad at him for not telling me things. They never really matter to much, but I get upset. Tonight I realized though I'm so afraid of hurting him that I get all worked up over small things. Its just like if he doesn't do it then I won't be mad, and I won't hurt him. But what if I do. What if one day I have a kid and I hurt my baby? What if I hurt the people I love....