anger

Anger is one of those emotions that gets in your head and seeps down into your heart. I feel the anger coursing through my veins and I don't want to feel this way, but i do. I am angry at my dad, his gf, my bf's mom, and myself. I don't want to be angry at everyone, but when people hold grudges it's me that is supposed to take the high rode. I am so tired of feeling like a floor mat, but I don't want to be angry. Everyone just expects me to forgive and forget. My dad is out of jail and trying to clean up his act so I am supposed to just forgive him for neglecting me all my life. My dads gf treats me terrible and manipulates my father into kicking me out, and she expects me to apologize to her and he expects me to forgive her. My bf's mom steals my debit card info and charges money to the card without permission and I'm supposed to just not care and forgive her. I am tired of people expecting me to forgive them. I do it all the time because I am afraid of being alone. I have friends steal from me and stab me in the back and yet I still am their friend. I never forget and I'm not as trusting, but they get away with it and I am stuck with friends who think they can walk all over me and I will just forgive them. How am I supposed to trust people when everyone continues to walk over me and I'm to afraid to tell the to fuck off.....